Depression... It's a Bitch...

Does anyone truly know what depression is? It's not always being sad, mopey, and down. Sometimes it's no motivation. It's not washing your hair for days because you honestly can't find the strength to do it. It's watching your house get unbelievably dirty with no desire to clean it. It's wanting to do nothing but lay in bed all day. It's not wanting to be alone, but not wanting to be close to anyone. Sometimes, it's feeling like your drowning, breathing in nothing but toxic water, but everyone around you is breathing the cleanest air imaginable. Days go by and you feel wonderful! You have so much energy and you finally think things are going to be okay, until the wind blows the wrong way and all of a sudden you're struck with a heart sinking, gut wrenching, inner pain. It could last an hour. It could last weeks! Living with depression is probably one of the hardest tasks I have ever tried to live through. But I'm making it! Although you may be completely over come by depression, you have to keep yourself busy! Keep going! Keep your mind from running away from you. It's so easy to let depression take over your soul. From person to person, if you're feeling low, get some help!

-When you're happy, you enjoy the music. When you're sad, you understand the lyrics.

-Chaos

♥ Dear Best Friend ♥

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Best Friends Day. Unfortunately we aren't spending it together. But that's OK cause we did yesterday and like always we raised hell ;)

So even though I sat here and SLAVED over this computer for you, I decided to let you know why. 

Simply put? Its because I Love You! Just a little ;) In all seriousness though you're basically my sister. You know this I tell you all the time and you know everything there is to know about me and you know you're more of a sister to me than my own blood. 

We have been through so much together in the 4 years that we've been friends. We've lived together, hated each other many times, been through each others break ups together, just about any and everything we could possibly go through together. We know each others dirty secrets and we tell each other every little detail of every part of our life.

Besides this yummy Popsicle in my hand, and of course my precious daughter, you are the greatest thing in my life ;) Without you I wouldn't be able to handle most of my everyday life. you help me through every dark moment in life and bring light to it. 

There isn't anything i would want to change about our friendship. Scratch that, i would get rid of the others that take up your time because I am your best friend and I should be the only one!!!!!!!!

I would also get rid of your "husband" so we could just move back in together and rule the world! i'm serious when I say we don't need men ;) I love you so much and can't wait til our next Hell Raising Adventure!!!!!!

               Love Always,

              

                ,,,O,,, 

                                 {_:_;_;_} 

                                  \____/. 

"Dear Best Friend" as told by Chaos

Dear Best Friend, 

      My Dearest Cupcake. Today, June 8th 2016, is Best Friends Day. I just wanted to take the time out of my super busy schedule of sitting on the couch eating tacos and watching Sons of Anarchy to tell you, you're perfect. We have been through the worse of times, you and I. But, somehow we always seem to make it through. You're so hard to figure out at times. One day, you're so calm and down to Earth. The next, you're wild and so care free! I love that about you.

             You want to know what my favorite thing about us is? The fact that absolutely nothing is off limits. We can discuss any subject at all and not feel the slightest bit embarrassed. You literally know almost every detail of my *cough cough* "adult encounters" and it's like talking about cake and coffee. 

          I don't think a blog is good enough for our misadventures. I was thinking day time reality stars in the making?? We could call it "The Misadventures of Cupcake and Chaos"! We could make MILLIONS!! *Cha-ching!* We are unbelievably perfect together and life is so good!

         Have I told you thank you lately? If not, thank you! Thank you for being you. Thank you for never giving up on me. Thank you for listening to me rant and rave over mumbo jumbo and constant, complete non sense. You may not know it, but you're my best friend. (Ha ha, like you didn't catch that over the last four years.) 

          Hey, guess what? No one else comes close to amounting to you! Did you know that? Because you should. I wake up every single day knowing my best friend is the greatest. And I'm the lucky one because you're all mine! *Mwahhahahahaha* (Obviously, I don't like to share.) I'm not sure any other way to explain your awesomeness. :) 

         Not a day goes by that I don't thank my lucky stars that I have someone like you to keep me going. I'd lose my head without you. Even when I hate looking at you, which happens more than people would think because your a heifer, I love you. I love you so so much. 

        I want to end this letter by saying you are my soul mate. You are absolutely the best. And you are PERFECT! Thank you again.. 

                                                                                                             Forever yours, 

                                                       Chaos 

         PONY FRIENDS FOR LIFE!!!!